is your direct her or them.

you know i never ever really appreciated her.
nobody did.
i think she was the nicest snr out of the whole batch
and she lost the most number of juniors.
felt like crying when i remembered the day we had section testing.
the stupid day where we had to buy chicken rice and got scolding because the whole section was staving by the time we got back.
and then clara had this weird call and we all started crying after lunch 0.o
then before section testing she actually came to hug us.
it wasnt anything. it was just the gesture that made me realise that she was the only one who was different. she was the one who cared.
im starting to miss her you know. i never treasured the times when she came back.
sigh. why does it matter. we're going to be one of them already.

i dunnoe who is it.
but if it is really you, i really feel very sad for her.
well. maybe it's not, i hope.

i almost became her direct you know.
actually i wouldnt have mind. just that i didnt want to change instrument.
if it wasnt for the instrument, i would have loved to be her direct.

sorry that i didnt treasure you earlier.